Another sheet of bad news arrives at my door You are covered in colours and pretty designs You dont fool me and your sweetened cover Makes me hate you more
It has been said and its been promised; The hard roads have gone You dont have to keep crawling in the mud Its all uphill from here Dont lose hope For these broken promises no one could ever keep Ill hate you more.
Theres one thing I know, I know a thing or two about pain I have lost and been forgotten I know a thing or two about pain
Theres a deep ache on my left side Just below my left breast Slightly central, slightly crooked Deep behind the veil of my ribs Its hidden, its hurting
One day you’ll ask, so one day I’ll say Ive walked a long way to get from there to here It was long and it was hot but it was frozen I lost my shoes and the stones beneath my feet were glass I’ll tell you my flesh carries these marks Because sometimes I slipped and fell
My flesh flushes hot and cold My limbs throb in agony I know I can bleed, I know I can burn But beneath your touch I turn to stone
This lusting goes to waste as I go numb It must feel strange to observe a statue setting I hate what I cannot feel Less real then a dream, I disappear
Ill hide in that tiny corner of your eye Where forever and never almost touch Ill wait there and see the world from my secret perch My eyes will dance with joy at your beauty And weep with your sadness From here I’ll fill your ears and your eyes with happiness
Ill fall deeper and deeper into the stretching vastness of emptiness And let you draw me into your shining world of words and of song You wont know why, but your words will begin to sparkle Ill shower them with stars as they roll from your tongue Together we will cast our spell upon the world
Ill hide just for a while Just till the hate is gone Maybe when the love returns Ill let you cry me from your eyes And I’ll dream myself back into being
Another hurt, another end Another stab in the dark, another song to burn Another heartbreak, another loss
For wrapping these cruel things in such pretty papers Ill hate you more.
They will all tell me my head is too full of dreams, But thats kinda how I like it. It keeps my head just that little bit higher above the ground.
They’ll say get a better job, drive a faster car; I like walking on foot, I get to see the tiny worlds you all miss.
You will try to make me promise to study hard, grow up and get married, I will laugh and giggle and restrain from telling you its not so.
Ill end up in some far away land before you’ve begun to wonder where I’ve been.
I plan on getting lost on roads in cities I cannot pronounce, Washing the sins from my flesh in rivers left unspoiled, I want to feel a different kind of breeze on my face every day of the year.
I am free, you already knew this, You try to conceal it from your friends and yourself, You are sure I will settle down and my road will one day come to a close.
But I can do this forever.
Just like there is no point taking my clothes off the line as its already raining; You cant stop me.
Oh the adventures I’ll have. Oh the places I’ll go.
If I get lost and cant find my feet, I’ll always know to look down and see solid ground And look up to see open skies.
I will climb the biggest trees I can find To get a brighter view.
You say this all seems too easy, We both know it hasn’t been an easy road. From where we have been and where we have come we will sing a lighter tune
We can laugh and we can love Lets hold each other and whisper sweet words I will trace the sentences I am too afraid to share on your skin And kiss you in a secret, safe, ‘i love you’ kind of way.
Together or apart, This world is ours and we can mend our broken edges. There is a beating echoing through your chest I swear I haven’t felt in forever There is a drum beating in my heart that has been unused for longer This is a life being re planned. Its a different road I see.
Ill kick the stones along the path and pause to sit and think Ill look up, and I’ll remember;
You caught me and made me sit and watch as you cast your line back into the water. I felt compelled to congratulate and cheer as you pulled another fish from the sea. As you left me laying on the shore choking and drowning on the foreign air pouring through my lungs.